Faith Like A Child

I love this sweet little boy with all my heart! I pray daily for that God will equip me to be his Mommy and help him grow in every way. Lately, I feel such huge pressure to raise him in a way pleasing to God. To teach him to love and honor God in all he does.

I have really made it an effort this summer to ensure we are in church every Sunday. This was something in the past both in my previous marriage and after the divorce that I would let slide from time to time. Now I see how it affects me personally when I miss a Sunday and so I made this commitment for me but I also made it for Kaden. I know he has not been going with his Daddy this summer and I really hope and pray that truly is just becaue of their summer schedule. Regardless though, I know its up to me to ensure I bring him there and teach him the importance of church. And that at times feels like a HUGE burden to me because I am so afraid of failing.

Its not always easy for me to fight the battle Satan seems to wage on Sunday mornings. Its hard for me to go to church alone. I am thankful that I have friends to sit with but from time to time they end up not being there. Once I am in church I am good to go and always thankful I pushed through the battle and didn't let Satan win. The Sunday mornings without Kaden can be even harder for me. I always feel so much more alone when Kaden is gone. I look forward to the days when I will have someone to share my Sundays with again.

I started going to a different church a few months ago for several reasons, one of them being I loved the children's program they had for Kaden. It melted my heart to have him tell me he learned about God. Today I picked him up from his room and as we were walking out to the car I asked him what he learned about today. He carefully put his fingers on my face and looked right into my eyes and said "Jesus lives in my heart, Mom and I love him". I seriously think I could have cried.

I pray daily that there is a fire burning in his heart for Jesus and that it will only grow brighter. To have my sweet little boy tell me he knows Jesus lives in his heart and that he loves Him was one of the best moments ever! And it was in that moment that I realized, although I may not always do it right and althought it may seem hard at times, it is all worth it and I am doing something right!

I am thankful for the children's program at church, for a Christian daycare center and for my parents and so many more who are helping me teach Kaden about God. I do feel the burden to raise Kaden as a Christian and I am so thankful that God is giving me tools in my life to assist me.

It was a blessing tonight to talk with Kaden more about Jesus living in his heart before we said his bedtime prayers. When I asked him what Jesus was doing in his heart he told me "helping me be good" and "because He loves me Mom". Oh melt my heart sweet boy! And then as he said his prayers we got to the part where I tell him to tell God what he is thankful for, normally its his toys, something fun we did or a person on his mind. Tonight it was all that but he also said "thank you for Jesus in my heart."

So while I pray God continues to equip me to be a God fearing parent and raise Kaden in a way pleasing to him. I also need to thank God for my sweet little boy who is teaching me so much with his faith like a child.