This is the month I have dreaded the past few years. There are just too many dates jam packed into one month. Kaden being baptized which ended up being our last family event, our first date night after Kaden was born on Valentine's Day, and him leaving the very next day. And then add in his birthday and our wedding annivesary and it's just a month I wish to fast forward through.For the first time, I am okay with this month. I don't love it or the dates that "haunt" me but I also know that God can and will "heal the memories". I know I am exactly where I am meant to be and I am proud of how far I have come and the woman I am today.
Out of the memories that I allow to "haunt me" I have developed an amazing bond with my family, my friendships have blossomed and strengthened, I have a job that I love, and I am raising an amazing sweet loving little three year old on my own and I am proud!
I realize that in the past three years I have found myself. I have found joy in living life for me and Kaden, I have found peace in entrusting God with my life and I have hope that He has amazing things in store for us yet.
I am thankful for the hurt that has shaped me into who I am today and who I have yet to become.
I look at pictures of Kaden and I and my heart smiles, the road we have traveled has only helped our bond as Mother and son be even stronger and amazingly beautiful!
