Kaden Luis,

Words cannot even describe how much joy you bring to my life! I have been so amazed the past few weeks at how grown up you are becoming. You are such a polite little boy, always saying please and thank you and when I call your name you say "yes, Mom". You are so loving! You always give me hugs and kisses and when you lay in bed with me you almost always either rub my arm or play with my hair. You are a huge helper bee. You used your Tonka trucks to help me weed the other day and tonight you helped me pick up sticks from the big wind storm. These days you love pretending to be a monster so you can scare people. You are also gaining quite the imagination. Just the other day you started chasing me with my belt telling me it was a snake. Tonight as we were leaving daycare I asked you to give me your craft so it wouldn't blow away. Two seconds later you yelled "Mom!" I turned around and asked you what you needed and your response was "hold me, I'm going to blow away!" Oh Kaden! We stopped at my work on the way home and you got to meet a police man. Just before bed you found the top of a contact case which just so happened to be blue so you placed it on your head and said "Look Mom, I'm a policeman!" You my little sunshine make me smile everyday! You melt my heart with the way you love me. I am so blessed to be your Mommy! Some days I wish I could slow down the clock and keep you little but I am also realizing what a blessing it is to watch you grow.

I love you yesterday, today, tomorrow. I always have and I always will!

XOXO

You Are My Sunshine

I have sung "You Are My Sunshine" to Kaden from the time I was pregnant with him. Kaden doesn't really love to sing with me but this is one song he will let me sing. I was tickled pink the other day when I started singing it and he actually sang along. Melt my heart!!! As I laid in bed with him that night I decided I needed to video this moment. I knew he wouldn't do it if he knew he was being video taped so this video is pretty much pitch black with us singing in the background. And at the end you hear our nightly routine of how much Mommy loves him and how long Mommy loves him. I will savor this video forever! So precious!

Our Family Is Growing!

This is my sister Megan and her fiance, Brad. Their wedding is March 2012!

And this is my brother Will and his fiance, Gina. Their wedding is December 10, 2011.

As you can see my family has a pretty exciting few months ahead of us. My baby brother gets married in December and my baby sister gets married in March! My sister just got engaged a few weeks ago and I could not be more excited. The best part is I adore my soon to be sister-in-law Gina as well as my soon to be brother-in-law Brad. They are both great fits for my siblings and our family. It's truly a blessing to know God brought two amazing individuals into our family and more importantly into my brother and sister's lives.

And now the infamous question I get, how I am handling all this? To be honest, for the most part I am handling it well. I had a moment where I cried after my sister's engagement only because I always thought it would have been a moment my ex would have shared with us, he was like a big brother to her and knowing he no longer is a part of any of this hit me for a bit. Other than that moment, I am loving this! Believe it or not, I have never stood up in any weddings so I am pretty excited to be standing up for my brother and even more excited to be my sister's maid of honor! And of course, the best part is Kaden gets to be the ring bearer for both of them!!!

I do have days where I feel a bit overwhelmed with all the wedding talk. After all, I have a wedding for one of my friends this month, I am helping my friend plan her destination wedding in March and then add in my brother and sister's weddings and at times I need to escape it. But at the same time, I refuse to let anything get in the way of being a part of all the special moments with my sister.

If anything, all this makes me dream of the day God brings a man into my life again. I keep reminding myself that God knows the desires of my heart and in His time and His way He will fulfill them.